Headaches are apparently a side effect of my new birth control.
Whoops?
Just saw my gynecologist.
No more Depo for me. On the waiting list for an IUD, hopefully within the next month or so. In the meantime, pill.
So I kind of hinted at it before, but my last depo shot has been really mean to me. Which really sucks because before that one, being on depo has been great. I get to regularly see my gynecologist so I can ask a million and one questions, I don’t have to use condoms or worry about babies, and the side effects weren’t totally awful.
But lately I’ve noticed my depression being more difficult than usual to maintain/understand. I’ve also been gaining more weight than usual, even though I’ve never been the healthiest eater. It’s possible that they have nothing to do with my birth control, but I’m inclined to think that they do.
So I decided that I would try to get an IUD. My roommate got one from Planned Parenthood for free, and I’m hoping I can do the same, but if it’s gonna cost me some I’m still going to try and pay for it, and Tony and I agreed we’d split that cost.
Problem is the hours for the PP that I want to go to are super weird and don’t work well with my schedule, so I’m getting really frustrated trying to figure out when I can go. My best bets are either Thursday night or Saturday morning.
I still scheduled my regular appointment for my depo shot though, because in the event that the IUD doesn’t work out, I’d still much rather be on birth control while I figure out what I want to do from there.
Let’s see how this goes.
Too moody to function normally because of my birth control.
Too anxious to take ADHD medication.
Too terrified to start taking anti-depression and anxiety medication because of how my body has reacted to my birth control and ADHD medication.
So my mind has been very unhealthy for the past couple weeks.
I don’t know what it is exactly, but I’m trying to explore all possible causes, including my birth control. Which leads me to say, I’m considering switching from depo to something else.
My first choice other than the shot would be an IUD. So if any of your lovely folks have any experience with one, a message or note on the subject would be greatly appreciated.
Got the shot less than three hours ago and already I want to crawl into bed and eat ice cream and cry.
New Depo shot today. Bring on the hormones.
Birth Control Chronicles: An Update.
I’m due for my next shot in the beginning of October, and I’m excited. That being said, I’m also paranoid, and just bought a box of condoms for us to use until I have my appointment. And I’m kinda glad I still spot, because it’s a visual reassurance that the depo is, in fact, working, but I’m not spotting a whole lot and I never get full-on periods anymore.
And all this self-esteem bullshit began way before I started on Depo, so I’m pretty sure it’s not that. So the fact that I know it’s an issue of my own mind and not hormones, plus the fact that I haven’t been truly self-conscious about anything of my body since middle school makes all of this one greeeeeaat big party.
So after I got all excited about Depo maybe completely eliminating my periods, I started spotting five days ago and it still hasn’t stopped. Also I’ve been cramping really badly, and about an hour ago I started feeling pukey. So now I’m lying in bed and I still feel like shit, but at least I’m away from the sugar-rushed kids running around screaming and the dozen aunts and uncles who won’t fucking stop taking photos. Plus now I get to watch Whose Line and get drunk texted by the boy.
You win some, you lose some.
(Also, my hair in this photo kinda looks like Kirsten’s haircut. Creepy.)
(Also boobs.)
- Me: These hormones are insane.
- Me: I start crying last night because I don't have a cat.
- Tony: ...
- Tony: I love you.
Birth Control Chronicles.
Was a stone-cold bitch last night to the boy. Do the mood swings begin right after getting the depo shot? I don’t know. I’ve been a little moody lately due to homesickness and such, but last night was ridiculous.
Anyway, apology has since been given and accepted. Hoping this doesn’t become a serious ongoing problem.
Can I say that I felt just a little proud of myself regarding how much my doctor liked me because I’m well-informed? I kept asking questions about different methods of birth control and the effects and this and that, and she was super excited that I was asking without her having to TELL me that those kinds of questions were even relevant.
And when I said I’ve always used some kind of protection, she gave me a high five.
Just got birth control’ed.
Can’t wait for a week from now when you begin to grace me with your baby-preventative goodness, Depo-Provera.
Safe sex is the best sex.
Gynecologist appointment on Thursday, and the boy’s going to schedule a check-up for himself as well. Thus begins the road to birth control.
